Warriors fall

What is it about idealism? It attracts, promises, seduces and makes you follow it. With fanatic zealousness. You are prepared to fight for it, to die for it, to kill for it. It is the single idea that holds scores of people together, and alienates them. It makes them love, makes them hate, makes them think, hope and pray. What is it that makes people close their mind to all but their beliefs.

But still... why is it that like a handful of sand that you have, the harder you try to hold it the more of it that slips out of your hand? Why is it people 'grow' out of their beliefs, and think it's ok to forget their beliefs, to act against them, to stop being idealistic and start being 'practical'?

Maybe it's the demands of the new life you have discovered, maybe it's another ideal which sounds more correct, or maybe you're just bored out of it. You abandon a belief system and label it a mistake of zealousness of youth, change it, call it practical and move on as if nothing's changed. No remorse, no regret, no apologies....

Your ideals lie in the waste bin, to be picked up by the next zealous idiot who is stupid enough.Maybe it's just a bee in my bonnet or the fact that I'm too cynical but people disappoint me. Actually idealistic practical people disappoint me.

The Last Call

Naveen looked down. He stood there staring at the hard ground below. He could almost feel it's embrace. He imagined what it would be like to hit the ground at 9.8 m/s² . Would it hurt too much? Would he feel the pain or would he die instantly? Would they be able to identify his body? Would they find the note he left behind?

"They wouldn't find the note" he thought. "Maybe I need to put it in a more obvious place." He removed the suicide note from his pant pocket and put it in his shirt pocket. "But what if I fall on my face and the note gets smeared with my blood?" He removed it from his shirt pocket and looked for a stone. He then placed the note under a big stone right next to the spot where he had decided to jump from. "That is that. They can't miss it now!" He thought. "Phew! Suicide is hard work!" He thought as he went back on the ledge.

He looked down again. If he leapt it would all be over. No more tears, no more pain, no more anything. He imagined the peace that would come after death. Like a deep dreamless slumber. Everything would be over. No more fear, no more loneliness, no more heartbreaks. He took a deep breathe and steadied himself for the jump as a song flashed through his head.

"Main shayar badnaam...."

"On the count of 3." He told himself.

"Ooo main chala..."

"One..."

"Mehfil se naakaam..."

"Two.."

His concentation was disturbed by the buzz of his cellphone in his pocket. He was tempted to ignore it and continue his jump. But a wierd sensation made him feel that somebody needed him. "Maybe I could help someone just before I die. Maybe I can do one good deed. I owe it to the world." He thought as he stepped back from the ledge.

"Hello...Naveen here!" He said his voice shaking with excitement.

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